is this it?
we separated on 22 Mar 17. today's only the second day we are apart.
it feels empty. no one to report to on my daily routines, no one to inform of when i got home. no one to ask if i had dinner.
coming back to an empty house that is even emptier than ever. never have i felt so empty before. did we make the right choice?
do i feel relieved of the past stresses? not yet. am i going to feel relieved? i dono.
i came to realise many things that happened between us will never happen again. i know it's duh but it hurts to know this. 1 person to sleep on the bed bought for the 2 of us. who is bringing powder to the beach with me again?
we started on 17 Mar 2012, at almost 4 am at clarke quay, beside the river. i asked and you agreed. i was elated. we have been through so much together, you stood by me when others didn't believe in me. you went against your parents for me. you saw me through school. you were with me when i was at the lowest in my career. you were everything i could ask for. but on 22 Mar 2017, i am crushed. i lost almost everything. even my confidence. i knew we were just barely making it through our 5th anniversary.
because of your belief, your principle, your parents, because of my situation, we cannot get back together. but what am i to do without you? will i ever get myself out of this situation? will i even be happily attached ever again, whoever it is?
i really don blame anyone. but it hurts, it really do.
i know you love me. i love you too. i still do, very much. know that i chose to let you go because i love you. be happy, be free, have a place you can call your own. forgive me. i am sorry i could not. i am really sorry. this will forever be a regret to me. maybe if we had ended earlier, it would not be so painful like it is today.
when will i be free from all this? when will i be free like the tears that's flowing right now?
we separated on 22 Mar 17. today's only the second day we are apart.
it feels empty. no one to report to on my daily routines, no one to inform of when i got home. no one to ask if i had dinner.
coming back to an empty house that is even emptier than ever. never have i felt so empty before. did we make the right choice?
do i feel relieved of the past stresses? not yet. am i going to feel relieved? i dono.
i came to realise many things that happened between us will never happen again. i know it's duh but it hurts to know this. 1 person to sleep on the bed bought for the 2 of us. who is bringing powder to the beach with me again?
we started on 17 Mar 2012, at almost 4 am at clarke quay, beside the river. i asked and you agreed. i was elated. we have been through so much together, you stood by me when others didn't believe in me. you went against your parents for me. you saw me through school. you were with me when i was at the lowest in my career. you were everything i could ask for. but on 22 Mar 2017, i am crushed. i lost almost everything. even my confidence. i knew we were just barely making it through our 5th anniversary.
because of your belief, your principle, your parents, because of my situation, we cannot get back together. but what am i to do without you? will i ever get myself out of this situation? will i even be happily attached ever again, whoever it is?
i really don blame anyone. but it hurts, it really do.
i know you love me. i love you too. i still do, very much. know that i chose to let you go because i love you. be happy, be free, have a place you can call your own. forgive me. i am sorry i could not. i am really sorry. this will forever be a regret to me. maybe if we had ended earlier, it would not be so painful like it is today.
when will i be free from all this? when will i be free like the tears that's flowing right now?
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