Empty

is this it?

we separated on 22 Mar 17. today's only the second day we are apart.

it feels empty. no one to report to on my daily routines, no one to inform of when i got home. no one to ask if i had dinner.

coming back to an empty house that is even emptier than ever. never have i felt so empty before. did we make the right choice?

do i feel relieved of the past stresses? not yet. am i going to feel relieved? i dono.

i came to realise many things that happened between us will never happen again. i know it's duh but it hurts to know this. 1 person to sleep on the bed bought for the 2 of us. who is bringing powder to the beach with me again?

we started on 17 Mar 2012, at almost 4 am at clarke quay, beside the river. i asked and you agreed. i was elated. we have been through so much together, you stood by me when others didn't believe in me. you went against your parents for me. you saw me through school. you were with me when i was at the lowest in my career. you were everything i could ask for. but on 22 Mar 2017, i am crushed. i lost almost everything. even my confidence. i knew we were just barely making it through our 5th anniversary.

because of your belief, your principle, your parents, because of my situation, we cannot get back together. but what am i to do without you? will i ever get myself out of this situation? will i even be happily attached ever again, whoever it is?

i really don blame anyone. but it hurts, it really do.

i know you love me. i love you too. i still do, very much. know that i chose to let you go because i love you. be happy, be free, have a place you can call your own. forgive me. i am sorry i could not. i am really sorry. this will forever be a regret to me. maybe if we had ended earlier, it would not be so painful like it is today.

when will i be free from all this? when will i be free like the tears that's flowing right now?

Missing My Boy

Hello Dear!

You're currently away for outfield and I just got reminded of this little space of ours, and chanced upon your latest entry in October! <3

We're nearing our 2nd year already, and I'm really excited. I used to think couples that stick together every day are incorrigible but ironically, I've fallen victim to this. Well amazingly for me, and fortunately for you, I haven't quite gotten sick of you yet.  (; In fact, I'm feeling moody without you around tonight as I slog through the day (and now the night) for work.

Nonetheless, just a reminder that I LOVE YOU so much. Yes, even when you are expanding horizontally, even when you have a.... weird, distorted, out-of-shape-half-grown toe nail.

Hope that in the new year of the HORSE, we will prosper, shine, make the best out of our youth and create a bright and awesome future for the both of us. I'm so looking forward to the journey ahead with you. It will be amazing, I know. Love you so!

P.S. Now, let's go for some sushi sooooooooon. Mad craving for sashimi!!!

-Peier

babyyy..

life has been so comfortable with you around me all the time.. 

and another career has started for you, go and make your mark okay! 

we will both be successful in our careers and we will soon settle down even more comfortably.

expenses are tight this few months but bear with me, we will tide it over. 

there will still be necessary expenses to prevent further unnecessary expenditures though..

i promise, really, to save up for our marriage and future.

baby, both of us also need to be more mature already... haha. we may often take it as a joke, but lets not allow silly small things lead to big arguments ("TOUCHWOOD!"), just in case..

i really love you and the future is ever so bright for us (:

A New Career

Today is the official beginning of my new career in Teaching.

Baby, I just wanna leave a note of thanks to you, for being my pillar of support and being my punching bag whenever I am stressed up or uptight. I appreciate you bringing me to recce the location of the school, sending me to work, offering me words of advices and so on. Thank you for being so willing to give. Thank you for your incredible tolerance towards me. Thank you for being the awesome you. I am really blessed to have you as my boy.

Let's strive hard towards our goal! I will try my best to my ability in this new career I promise. I love you!

Much love,
Your gf

For my baby

Baby,

Thank you for always putting me first and making me happy. Though I say this to you every other day, I still wanna let you know that I Love You and will always do.

Peier

time sure flew by very quickly since we got together 11 months ago. we have been through ups and downs, periods of confusion and agony.

what that had never came to my mind on 20 november 2011, the first day we talked, was that we can be so madly in love all this while, emerging through the harsh times of uncertainty. i believe no one or nothing will break us apart in the future too.

baby, no matter what, i won't give you up. our pledge to hold each other hands down the winding road, it has etched deeply in my heart. i will hold no one else's hands other than yours and our beautiful kids' in future. i will kiss and love no one else other than you and our kids too.

baby, thanks for your patience and understanding all these while.. they were much needed for me to be able to cope with school and work. all i need is you (:

and also, thanks for your support for our 小白！

happy 11 months baby, and i am just as excited in anticipation of our 1st year together! 

Dearest Baby,

Today marks out 9th month of happiness and love. Our taiwan trip was awesome, and I really miss those 10 days! Looking at our Taiwan album online doesn't help, really.

Like us watching the beautiful sunrise on that cold morning of 26th November 2012, together. Stunning.

Am glad you finally got your little own cosy vehicle. It adds to our convenience, but to your financial burden too. Hence, our scrimp-and-save-plan must work! We are in this together hehehe <3

I wanna tell you just how happy I am with you and I've never felt more blessed.

Looking forward to our many happy overseas trips to come, and to spend all our days together happily ever after, like a fairy tale. Happy 9th monthsary!

XOXO,
Girlfriend

ALL THE BEST FOR THE LAST LAP BABY!

 

 

*WE'LL BE SCOOTING OFF TO TAIWAN BY MIDNIGHT!*



i love you too dear^^

Thanks for listening to my rants when i'm feeling the worse during lunch time. I love you baby.

I love how the back of your head feels like when you wake up in the morning. Flat hair slightly above the neck area that's soft and nice to the touch. Plus a few awkward standing strands at the top to complete your noobpuff look when you're still sleepy (yes, those that you have to tame with water right after). Andddd I love how you rub your eyes with the sides of your fingers and not the finger tips.

We may have a few bickers and quarrels here and there, but baby, I'd always love you.

it is amazing how we got this far and got so close and i am loving every moment of it. never once did i regretted going after you. baby you are the one for me.

i know queuing for flats is the hot topic right now, and as much as it affects you, it affects me greatly as well. i feel very bad i cant give you an answer initially. but baby, please be patient and trust me, this has been always in my mind. rest assured, i am trying my very best to find out as much as i can on what are the things i can do in order for us to have a cosy, warm and loving nest to ourselves and our 2 lovely children in future. 

what i know now is, i will continue working hard towards this goal. the shortest possible time now is 4 years, if you need to answer. i want to and i will give you a place we call our own as soon as i can.  

i promise.

lets work this out together. where there is a will, there is a way.

as long as i have you, i will never give up trying.

i'd never ever wanna lose you baby. i love you<3

 I love how comfortable we are with each other at this stage. I can spasm-like wriggle and shake in front of you, salivate when i sleep on your bed, parade around you w/o make up, spank you whenever I like, force you to salsa dance, and the list goes on... Though we are like stickers and are almost inseparable these days, but...

 I still melt when you grin like that.

我爱我的宠物。

awwww.. don't pout my pretty girl. i've never loved anyone more like i love you.

now and forever.

you will always be the most beautiful girl to me (:

<3

hello you cute little thing. 

miss you.

11.08.12

Baby, i hope you like the surprises that i had for you!

i'm really sorry that the plans aren't perfect this year, but i promise i'll work on it year after year okay?^^

i love you, sooooo much<3

PS: Remember always, you are beautiful to me no matter what(:

 1. Brownie Senior & Brownie Boy

2. Greeeeeeeeen

Love you dear! xoxo

only you are able to see the perfect side of me in the imperfect me.

happy happy happy 4th monthsary baby((:

i love you<3

life is not always a bed of roses.

But as long as i have you my rose, I'm contented.

<3

 我很幸福 

<3